Brain: You have to call.

Me: I know.

Brain: You say that, but you're not going to call.

Me: Yes I am.

Brain: When?

Me: I need to try to prepare myself for it.

Brain: What the hell? Where has that gotten you in the past?

Me: Will you stop already?

Brain: No. I won't. You have let this go on for too long.

Me: I told you I KNOW that. I just have to make that decision on my own..

Brain: When? When they plop you into the ER again because of the excess stress this is bringing on?

Me: It's not the same thing and you know it.

Brain: I am well aware that it's not the same thing. But it's still not right.

Me: But what if.....?

Brain: You will find out the answers that you need. You know where to look. You will know if there is a problem. If there is, they can help you fix it.

Me: I can't. I'm not ready. I have to try things on my own. There are too many people counting on me right now. I can't take the chance of having to dessert them again.

Brain: Please. Don't wait. Give me a date. When will you call the doctor if it doesn't stop? And the folks that count on you? They'll be able to make it without you for a while, and that's even presuming it's a bad thing. Quit backing the hearse up to the door.

Me: Friday. I will call Friday.

Brain: Promise?

Me: I will try.

Brain: You know what you have to do. You know that you just have to accept it and do what needs to be done?

Me: Yes.

Brain: Then please, promise me.

Me: I can't. But I will try.

Brain: That's all I can ask.