I hate the word fear, with a passion. I hate how it robs me of my true self. I am a slave to fear, letting it control my every action. I am at a loss as to how to deal with it.
It sneaks up on you. I, in my "look at me, I am so powerful self," cower in its shadows. I can't sleep, I can't eat, I lose control at the simplest situations, be it at work or home. My skin crawls. I sweat. I can not concentrate. I can not cope.
That very thought eats at me. Why? Because I am the "all powerful Mom, wife, and worker. I can control everything."
Except for fear. I've had people tell me to pray, and conversely, I've had people tell me to "just get over it already." I've had lots of advice on how to cope. For once, I would really like to hear someone just say "I understand." I guess in today's world, that is just too much to ask.
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I don't understand, but I care.
That good enough for now?
Posted by: John Cowart at August 29, 2007 4:00 AM
Well, honestly? I THINK that the ones who have said to pray DO understand. I think they ARE saying "I do understand" ... but they're going the extra to "remind" you what to do about it.... So.... I do understand. I've been overpowered with fear on several occassions lately. And then I've been helped through it. 'Nuff said.
Posted by: Melli at August 29, 2007 8:59 AM
Fear can be paralyzing. The "Just get over it" advice just doesn't cut it.
Posted by: Daisy at August 29, 2007 9:44 PM
If you were talking about the dentist, I MORE than understand! I hope everything went well. And, if you were talking about anything else, because of my dental phobia, I understand that as well. {{{hugs}}}}
Posted by: Judy at August 29, 2007 10:58 PM
I think we've all been there. And often return there. It means we're human, fallible, humble. I'd wonder about folks who DON'T feel fear. I think they're missing something very important and real.
Posted by: Carmi at August 29, 2007 11:54 PM
fear is something I live with all the time. Not only my own fears, but the irrational constant fears of Little Man which are magnified by his OCD.
I understand.
Don't know if that helps or not, but I do.
Posted by: Suzanne at August 30, 2007 4:09 PM
I DO understand. Being a slave to fear...wow, yeah. I never let myself use those words but that's exactly what it is.
I'm here via Michele's and although I've been here before its been way too long! :)
Posted by: Julie at August 31, 2007 3:06 PM
